A couple of months ago I shared the thoughts of a friend of mine who was agonising over the whether her to leave her job. She wrote: “Am I really done or do I just need a break? Is it so awful to just want a break and not have a really compelling reason? … I’d almost feel better if the decision was made for me - then at least I could blame it on that rather than owning up to leaving a perfectly good job in a crazy market.”
Well, it kind of was. When she put in a two-month leave application so that she could go to India and practice yoga, the company knocked her back. She resigned. But she’s no longer resigned about her life!
In contrast, I am still dithering and this week I spoke to my accountant. Well, this woman is as bossy as they come (actually it’s kind of like a dose of my own medicine). She said to me: “That’s a lot of money to give up if you leave your job. Why wouldn’t you want to build up to it?”
And that my friends is the point. This has already been a slow build up of resignation. Of course, I don’t just want to go off an have an extended holiday. (And I’m not independently wealthy so I still need to work out a way to pay the bills.) My accountant’s argument is that I should get new work arrangements in place before I jump. And really, that’s the sensible thing to do.
The thing is, I already work so damn much I don’t have the energy to add anything more on top. And frankly, something deep inside me says that I need to just do leave having some quiet confidence that I will work things out once forced to.
Now all I have to do is stick with gut instinct and close my ears a little to what seems sane and sensible. Isn’t it?
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